Lord, I Give You My Heart ....... at least I want to

Lord, I Give You My Heart
By Reuben Morgan
This is my desire
To honor You
Lord with all my heart
I worship You
All I have within me
I give You praise
All that I adore is in You

chorus
Lord I give You my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You alone
Ev'ry breath that I take
Ev'ry moment I'm awake
Lord have Your way in me


We sang this in church last week. We've sung it a few times, actually. But I really thought about the words this week. I do want to honor God and give Him praise, but do I really do it? I find myself doing things to dishonor him on a daily basis. And it's not like I sin, confess my sin, and then move on. No. Lately I've been finding myself in a perpetual state of sinning. I don't want to stop. I like it too much.

It was when I found myself liking my sin that I had a revelation. When I didn't want to go to church because I didn't want to be convicted. When I welcomed the idea of cancelling bible study because I didn't want to see the women who pray for me and love me.

God's word says that those living in darkness fear light and run from it. I didn't want to believe that that was me, but I was haunted by the thought of not wanting to go to church and not wanting to do my bible studies. I can justify my actions all I want, but it doesn't make them right.

So today, and every day, I give my heart to God. I confess that I am doing wrong and pray that God would help me make it right. I know I can't do it without God. Satan may be pulling me down and trying to make me turn away again, but I know that I can't live like that anymore.

"God, please pull me out of this hole I've dug for myself and help keep me above ground."

July 25 thankful thought

Today I'm thankful for a good, productive weekend, time spent with Eric, and just some time to relax.

Working enhances my prayer life?

I never thought having a job that made me talk with people throughout the whole country would be a good thing for my prayer life, but it has. When I find myself talking with a vet in AK, I think/pray for my AK family. When talking with someone from NY, I think/pray for my sister and brother-inlaw. And because of my membership with Crosswalk.com Forums, I think of so many different people when I talk with many of my clients throughout the country.

What Does It Do For Me?

What Does It Do for Me?
"Seinfeld" moments and the humble—and noble—act of serving
By Jim Killam

On a "Seinfeld" rerun I watched tonight, Jerry and a girlfriend, played by Courteney Cox, pretend to be married in order to get a discount on dry cleaning. Afterwards, in the coffee shop, they toast each other with orange juice.

"To my beautiful wife."

"To my adoring husband."

"Adoring? What about handsome?"

"I like adoring."

"Adoring's good for you, but what does it do for me?"

None of the characters on that show ever found a relationship that lasted. I'm not sure if the writers meant to make such a profound point, but it comes through in almost every episode: People who live by "What does it do for me?" are revealed as shallow, self-absorbed, and comically pathetic.

The rest of this article can be found here

Seeing the topic of Seinfeld in the first couple words of a Christian article on marriage sure drew me in to read the article. But the article wasn't nearly as funny as the show. It's soberingly honest and true.

I blogged about a month ago about loving Eric like he's never been loved before. This involves a servant heart. Jesus came not to be served, but to serve. Serving others is an attitude lost on many, many people. I hope and pray that Eric and I would have serving hearts for each other and our future children and would instill an attitude of serving others in our children.

daily thankful thought

Today I'm thankful for new responsibilities at work and projects that are going well. :)

God's Perfect Timing

Church was really good today. The pastor from our mother church came and gave the sermon on the Great Commission. It was really neat. Our church is officially 7 1/2 months old and we're sending out a group to do a Missions trip in Mexico this week. They'll only be gone for 3 days, but it's awesome to see such dovotion and desire to do God's work with such a small church. I am so happy God brought us here ... I'm beginning to think that God brought us to California to be a part of this church plant.

I've learned so many things being a part of it and so much has happened to us while being here ...... Eric's school and my work are just byproducts of coming here for this church. I think if Eric and I had come to Cali any later than we did, we wouldn't have been able to be a part of the church plant. God's timing is amazing and there was no way to know what God had in store for us 2 years ago when we packed up our lives in Colorado to come out here