New opportunity?

When Eric and I were out and about on Saturday we wandered into the Christian bookstore. As we were leaving, I saw a help wanted sign. Minimum 3 shifts a week. One shift that's open is M-F 5-9:30. I get off work at 3:30 and could work 3 evenings from 5-9:30.

I've been pondering the idea since Saturday.

I still haven't made a decision. I'm really liking having my evenings free to do what I want. But at the same time, all I do when I get home is watch TV and sulk. Sometimes I feel like the life gets sucked out of me as I walk in the door and I have no energy or motivation to do anything; I occassionally feel VERY depressed, lonely, and invisible. Would having a second job and something to do in the evenings alleviate this???? I dunno.

Eric and I are both concerned that I'll burn out. I would be working 12+ hours a day, and until I move back to my other shift, I'll be up starting at 5:30 and not get to bed until after 10. I don't know if that would be good for my spirit. I also fear that I would not have time to just hang out with the few friends that I have. If I choose to do another bible study or a one-on-one study with someone I would then go from 1 free evening a week to 0.

BUT .... I'd have something to do in the evenings. I'd have fellowship with other believers. I would be in a Christian bookstore; I love Christian bookstores. I might make a friend or two. I'd have the chance to serve the community where I live. It would be a ministry more than a job.

If I were to put all the pros and cons on a scale, I believe the scale would be balanced. I'm still seeking God on this. Since getting a job would really change things, I think I need a HUGE sign saying to do this. If I don't get that, I think I'll stay put and be content.